Just when one thinks they are getting better...

     I feel like the life is being sucked out of me.  The numb, tingling, burning is mid thigh downwards.  The ache in my elbows almost wants to make me cry.  Never mind the 40lb weight that is sitting on my lower back...or the pain in the left lung area (backside).  Or the hands that don't want to work, very limited feeling in them - mostly pain and burning.  Which now lives from the tips of the fingers up about an inch about my elbows.

     The struggle to keep moving at times seems too much.  I just want to lie down in a cool meadow and go to sleep ~ for an eternity.  I keep pushing myself.  Taking hot/cold showers trying to coax the blood to circulate throughout my body.  The underneath of my tongue is a horrid shade of deep purple.

     Still no word from the insurance company....

     I feel as though I may be losing this battle with whatever has been ravaging my body.  I am not afraid.  Did I mention that my lips/tongue and teeth are all back to where they were a week ago?  Yes, numb, the feeling of massive swelling and I'm just so darned tired.