A glimpse of light

Yes, I'm seeing it, that glimmer of sunshine trying to make it's way into what has been great darkness of mind, body and spirit.  Thank the stars that I've a grand network of support from some very caring friends and family members.  They have carried me through and encouraged me to this point.

How'd I get here, one might ask.  I did research.   Loads and loads of research.   Printed most things out due to the muddled mind that did not want to comprehend.  After failing to get my doc's attention (all the way back to March 2012, when the neuropathy had noticeably began) that I wanted and desperately needed a full blood work up to see if there vitamin/or mineral deficiencies, or perhaps a toxin overload, I felt compelled to help myself.

I've combed through the "lack of this can provide symptoms of this" for hours on end.  I do not sleep.  Awakened by spasms that continue to thwart this body.  Drinking more almond milk (am lactose intolerant, to add to a myriad of food allergies) for the magnesium, vitamin E, A.  Eating more nuts and leafy greens - must get those vitamins & minerals back in order.

"Leaky gut" syndrome is what some call it.   Perhaps a good name, since the intestines seem to not be properly functioning.  What causes that?   In theory (I've found no 100% confirmation), it's the Celiac - damage to the villi (tiny, finger-like projections that enable the small intestine to absorb nutrients from food) . My presumption  being that this has been out of whack, so to speak, since at least February.  When the numbness in the bottoms of my feet caught my attention, my scalp dried out/loads of hair loss,  and a porcupine decided my face was a great place to hang out.

I adore my current doc's.  Trust me, I have gone through many the past 5yrs.   Am a tad more than just disgruntled though that they did no further testing (my fault... they wanted to send me to the Mayo clinic, not possible with no health insurance...) and just told me it was uncurable, this peripheral neuropathy.

Perhaps my body and family members could've been spared this horror of my loss of control had they done the blood work.  Perhaps I am just continuing to grasp at straws.  The mind clarity has improved over the past 4 days.  The mouth and teeth not so numb.  Still spasms, predominately on the right side now, from my mouth to my eye.  But even that is better.  Pain still shoots through the hands, fingernails feel as if they will blow off with every touch of this keypad... but if I don't write it now, it might just be forgotten.  Can't have that now, can we?

Here I will share some of the information I've combed through, in case you fee you might be aided by it.

http://cookitallergyfree.com/blog/2010/08/13-tips-on-how-to-heal-the-leaky-gut/
 I’m Gluten Free and Still Sick? | The Celiac Diva
www.naturalnews.com/food_cravings.html